Dream

Have you ever gone through a phase where you wish for something to happen so bad that all your senses and thoughts are engulfed in the mist of that desire ? That one desire that fills you up and leaves you empty, all at the same time.

Have you ever felt like you have seen a familiar scene of a similar future, present and past of yours, all at once in one quick blink of the eye ?

Have you ever felt that the day and night have all become same for you, because the moon and sun that separates them are both showing you the same dream over and over again?

Then yes, you have dreamt of what you have desired ...

Phenomena.

I encountered an amazing phenomena a day back. I felt so down on one matter which kept on perturbing me for some while. An inner voice inside me told me to just ask my creator for what I want and so I did. I even kept a time check that if my want doesnt fullfil till a particular moment, I would just stop thinking about everything that confused me and would move on in my existence. Just as the clock was about to strike that moment and as I was about to surrender to the shadow of hopelessness, my want changed to my present. I just coudn't believe it.

Some one far above always has ears on what we say to him. Its just us who get busy and forget our purpose of being.

Chaos!

There are times in our lives when mind is in total opposition to heart. Your heart wants to believe in something so badly ... its like that thin branch of happiness you are holding onto and in your mind, you believe that if you leave it, everything will be gone. On the contrary, there is the mind, which in its own space is more stronger than the weak heart and the mind has its very own strong say as well. Both the heart and mind is pulling me in the opposite direction right now. My hearts wants to believe something which will make me happy, where as the mind wants me to see the hard facts of actuality. Why doesn't the mind get it that no matter how strong it is or how weak the heart may be, the blood pumping to the whole body is still provided by the heart and no blood means no body, no brain, no mind, no soul ... no me ... I want to listen to my heart and I so want to ... but can I live in a dreamland forever even if I want to ?

A new way!

The best way to relax yourself in high anxiety is not to think about problems of life in a serious manner. I have this firm believe now that when ever your blood pressure is rising on any matter, just keep quite and move away from that scene. Give yourself and your circumstances a break, get out of the sad state of dilemmas, take fresh air in and polluted air out.

Sometimes the more you run after life to make it better, the more it runs away from you making itself worst and in turn making you feel the extereme form of worst. Yes, indeed its for your best interest to let go of things at a time like this and leave it to your faith to make it better.

There is no doubt that you have to make efforts in the little play field bestowed upon us by our creator in order to win the game of existence but there are boundaries of efforts beyond which even if you try, the results won't get any better.

I won't get this second again and you won't get this second again either so why are we wasting it thinking about the problems. Why not think about ourselves, yes I mean ourselves because if we really care about out souls, we should think about making ourselves happy. Happiness is the blood for soul, the more you would take it away from your soul, the more your soul will get near to its death. So do you want to kill yourself?!! the decision is yours and yours only ...

Plans unfolding ...

I had so many plans today but a spur of the moment changed them. That unexpected turn of my emotional thinking lines, made me do the unwanted and things went positively in my favor.

Its strange, you think so much, and draw your action paths accordingly and then suddenly one thought, one mere thought changes the whole scene for you.

It firms your believe, that there is a mighty power controlling it all.

The only solution to the difficult questions of life is to have faith on that power and then you will see the magic happen.

the free bird

Sometimes in life you just want to fly away .... away from everything... the ryhthm .. the noise... the talks.... even away from life ... like a bird ..like a free bird... its weird... the mere thought of independence in its full form gives you both ..pleasure and discomfort ... its this life that make you alive... and sometimes its this life which makes you dead.. ok so enough with the vicious circle of life and life but really it feels so weird at times.

I remember the heroine from the movie 'forest gump'. She always wanted to fly out, at all pushing times of her 'life', fly freely like a bird, but have we ever thought why do we want to do the flying and why we actually don't?

Maybe its the fear of the unknown that stops our feet from crossing that thin line between the familiar world and the unfamiliar world or maybe (which I think is more plausible), its the song "can't live with this world and without this world".

I know it sounds kind of all mixed up but it is actually the connections you form with the very familiar 'at times really weird' world that keeps you from flapping your wings to go some where else. Connections ..ummm .. real important word .. makes me just ponder ...because they are also the reason due to which we want to flap our wings in the first place ... wickedddddd.. ain't it??!

Miscellaneous

It has been a long time since I wrote anything on this blog of mine. The reason was nothing actually ... I wasn't that busy ... I wasn't sleeping ... I was here only ... in this world .. but still cudn't manage to write.

Some times I just think ... Life is so short, still I don't know what am I waiting for. I mean the reason of my existence dawn down upon me quite some time back , loud and clear, stll I am further away from that, and know what, I don't know why is that ?!?! ... People like me come in this world and go away the next time I hear about them, yet I assume may be somewhere in my sub conscious that I am still here for some time, right!!?!?! but actually the fear within me is right, I am not here for some time, I can go right this moment, and still I am standing right where I was before.

I think this is a journey which is a constant fight between the right and the wrong, the just and the in-just, the human and the devil. Its all that and that only. There is nothing in between and you just select a path of your choice from the 2 extremes present in front of you. My summary is that yes the right path is hell difficult to stick by to.

Relationships , loaded relationships and unloaded ones, all will enter your life and fade away as their task in finished, the task for which they came into existence in the first place. Loaded relationships will bring in lots of excitement, joy, happines but will kill you the most when they aren't providing you what you want and expect them to. Unloaded ones are just come and go sort, not giving you much but at the same time not taking much from you too.