Winter Rumbling

A lot of times these days, I wonder about the real meaning of life. Why are we here, why are we doing all what are we doing, where is this all going, should I be really doing what am I doing? The whole day, most of us run like crazy after what we think is so important to us but have you ever given it a thought as to what is really important for your existence? Have you ever closed you eyes, taken a deep breath, closed yourself from all inputs of outer world and just listened to what the inner soul is saying? If not then you should and then make the decision on the real purpose of life for yourself. Most of the time we are either living on the expectations of others or we are living for the false wishes the world around develops in us.

With time, you learn how things move forward in life and with time you learn to face the harsh realities of life. Sometimes I think that the childhood days are the most fun days of one's life. There is no tension, no hurries, no worries and most importantly you live in your own little pure world which definitely reflects the best in you :)! Amazing days, aren't they?

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At This Moment....

At this moment, I am not thinking particularly about anything but I do realize that I don't like very crowded metros. I am also not fond of people peeping in to your note book when you are trying to pen down something, even if it is just a feeling that I get, I still don't like it.

I just saw a car being carried away on those tow trucks which pick up cars etc, the ones that are parked on the wrong side of the lane and this car was a bright shiny new one too. The first thought that came to my mind was, at this moment the owner of the car would be so sad, at this moment when I am writing down this note in a satisfactorily good mood. At this moment, there are so many people in the world who are coming in to existence, so many people who are losing the light of life, so many people smiling and so many people shedding away the sadness in their life through tears.

At this moment, we are all part of the big world, sharing the same 'life'..... YET .... living such different stories ..... all at THIS moment ....

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My Humming Thoughts (II)

Some times I think you need to see beyond the person's outer self and peep into his/her heart to see the reality in perspective! This I believe, is definitely one of the ingredients for the recipe of any successful relationship. One cannot 'always' make decisions or pass judgments on what the other party says or do, rather one has to use all his God gifted senses and see the soul within. Trust me, after you have been able to maintain any relationship for some time, you would have gained an insight into human philosophy and developed an ability to see beyond the faces.

Have you ever tried driving in any transport mode in a long tunnel? You see the light at the end of the tunnel, so tempting yet so far away but that light motivates you to move on, drive quickly, it becomes your main reason for going on. That is exactly what I feel for problems and sadness we face in life. Though it seems very dark when you are in it, always remember there is a light at the other end waiting to embrace you with open arms.

My Humming Thoughts - (I)

It feels good to be able to look forward to things and feel the same way you used to some time ago. Some times we loose ourselves in the monotony of life and get so much engulfed in small issues that the big'ness' of nature and the blessing to enjoy it seems to fade away in the distance.

I was telling a friend yesterday that we humans have been blessed with an amazing ability to bounce back from the toughest of situations and move on even though some times we do it with dragging feet but for sure we always come out of those situations from which we never believe we can. Yes, this is the beauty of being a human, so much flexibility wrapped up in a hard cover of rigidity.

I think 'Trust' is one of the basic elements for hope. If you trust on people or things to improve and most importantly if you trust your God's plan for you, you would eventually go on hoping in life. No matter how hard things become, you will always have the candle of hope burning within you.

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Just a small note ....

Being considerably techsavvy, I finally got my own IPad to play with now which makes me quite happy particularly because I can do my two favourite hobbies, that is read and write, any time and any where I want. Not that I could not do them before because a notepad, pencil and books, all are quite easily obtainable products these days but I some how feel more comfortable and definitely less lazier in sharing and posting on a device like this. Generally I really like to share what I feel and see with any writing platform because venting out by any means is good specially for health. It makes you feel light and of course in the process, it makes up priceless memories which you can read later on and once again feel the same way you felt times ago. This is my very first post from my latest acquired technology and I hope I can now post and share more frequently as I would like to.

 

 

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Random 'ness'

Before I get another reason for not starting a piece in my blog, I have quickly opened the editor to compose something, anything that gives me a window to vent out. I need it desperately but the problem is that I am not getting time these days :(

It has been so long since my last post here, and I felt bad and sad about it.

Life is not a smooth journey always, you need to go down, come up again, go down all over and come up yet all over again! I just read this saying on facebook which one of my friends posted and it made me ponder ..

"The struggle you are in today is developing the strength you need for tomorrow, dont give up!"

It made me ponder over the real meaning of life. I totally believe that life for every one on this planet earth is a battle. A battle between who you are and what people want you to be, a battle between what you want and what you get, a battle between reality and illusion. Most importantly its a battle between  choosing right over wrong and believe me that's the ultimate struggle we go through at every second of our lives. At times we make wrong decisions but we have to live up with them because we made them but ofcourse we can always hope for things to get better. Though I do think that 'only' hoping for betterment does not give you positive results because when you are in it, you have to do it, play your cards, take the plunge and just do something or anything to makes things right. Only hope won't do you any good other than keeping you in fantasy land forever. You are the only one who can make things right and yes, hope and determination will be your friends over this course.

I have this feeling that life is just flying these days, I get up and then ..... I go to sleep. The things in the middle of these two ends seem all hazy. Sometimes I want to stop time, don't want to go into future, don't want to think about past but just be in that present. Then I tell myself, you have to go on, you have to start implementing so many dreams and close so many dark tunnels, you have to change what you can and leave what you can't, but for everything to be done, you have to go on ....
and so I do..!

It is 'Happy' time !

Happiness is a weird phenomena seriously. When it comes, it comes with a bang, changing you completely for the time period that it engulfs you. You feel good about everything around you and within you. You completely forget about all the worries and you just keep on thinking about the thing which made you happy. Your blood starts running fast in your veins (which is the adrenaline rush) and in this mode you just feel positive about every other negative thing in your life which is funny because the second you get out of the happiness mode, you feel negative about the same things again. Yes, that is the affect this happiness has on our brain, our heart and most importantly on our soul. There are so many actually countless moments in life where we feel such happiness even if it was just that happy time when hundreds of people liked your recent display picture on facebook or it was just that happy moment when your mother hugged you when you really needed it, there are still many of them but mostly we forget the less happiness giving times and remember only the major ones.

Yesterday I was very happy too because of something my parents did for me. Everything felt and sensed wonderful. All the things that were bugging me were just plainly ignored by me because I just wanted to think about my parents and just them. I felt so blessed and I felt good about life in general. I didn't even know how time went by yesterday (which for me doesn't normally pass so quickly because I am quite free these days) . It was like the phase when you fall in love, probably love gives people happiness and that is why they remain in a world of their own.They feel good about everything and everyone around till they are in love or in other words till they are happy.

Below given is an excerpt from one of my own poems titled 'Happiness'.

Sense Twilight coming over  

Feel gust of departure wafting

Yet my heart is illuminated

And my soul feels enlightened

Yes, happiness environs my spirit

The greatest fortune, one could every wish for

That eternal bliss I have ever yearned for

Has blessed my being finally

O God let this be for eternity

Let this jewel be my ornament enduringly

Just Posting!

Just felt like posting some motivating lines from one of my poems ( for those of you who are interested in knowing, yes  ... I do write poetry at times :) ).

So the lines go like ...


 

There’s a feeling of pain

Why am I not contented

Why can’t I figure it out?

And yet again as I ponder

I see a glimpse of hope

Pushing me away

Away for good

Have to hold on to this twine

Can’t let it go

Because I see it

See survival gazing at me

Alas the shadows are still increasing

Darkening my path

Is it the sunset or my vision blurring?

Nevertheless, I am holding

Holding on to you ….. my faith

And I know then

I know then ... that I will survive

Whiny Me

Its friday, a blessed day as is said in my religion but I don't feel very good today and the bad part is that I know the reason behind it! It is definitely better if you have no clue about things rather than knowing them and not doing anything about them. Probably that is why they say 'Ignorance is a bliss'. Sigh! I know in my heart that I have to do a lot of things to make other things right but I am not doing them. I need the medicine of 'pushing', some thing or some one to just push me into the realm of  'doing things' where I would do what I should be doing without any further delays. Do you know where I can get that medicine?

Anyways I was just thinking few moments back about a negative issue which happened and some how my mind by itself give me an example of a more negative issue which didn't happen. I, who was whining about the happening of former issue started thanking God about the unhappening of the latter one. Funny right? I mean if we actually start acting on that saying 'Count your blessings, not your woes', we can easily rid our over burdened brain from one of the many problematic thoughts it faces and move forward a little more happier but that is if and only if we start acting on the above given saying which is definitely not so easy!

As if I am in a flitting dream ...

Lately I have started to ponder upon this 'time' thing more and more. Have you noticed how quickly the time is passing? I see my life for instance, how it has changed within a span of just 1 year. A careless kid, much loved and pampered, suddenly has become a responsible young lady managing her own home now. My family, whom I grew up with for so many years and never noticed the changes time was doing to us but now when I am away from them, I can see it all. As a spectator I can easily comprehend how every one is growing and at what speed time is passing. My little sisters born in front of me now are achieving great feats in life, my cute niece just 6 months old on my wedding, now got her first toy car and proudly the youngest member of her pre-school class. I mean isn't it amazing how this time is just passing at an unimaginable speed?

As the time passes, you also learn to let go of previous 'times' and move ahead with the stream of life. At this time I am reminded of this following beautiful quote from one of my favourite movies titled 'The Lovely Bones',

Susie Salmon: "These were the lovely bones that had grown around my absence. The connections, sometimes tenuous, sometimes made at great cost, but often magnificent., that happened after I was gone. And I began to see things in a way that let me hold the world without me in it."

Perhaps I can appreciate this time passing due to one more fact which is this that I do have a lot of 'time' these days in particular to think about life. Sad but true that our busy lives just doesn't give us enough time to think about such things and appreciate the importance of every second that goes by.

I guess when we would die, most of us would agree to this saying about life from the same movie mentioned above,

Susie Salmon: "I was here for a moment, And then .... I was gone."

So everyone! in short, life is very small. We should live, feel, do, as if there is going to be no next moment. I guess then we would be more satisfied than we are now and what is more a blessing than contentment of the soul.