It is 'Happy' time !

Happiness is a weird phenomena seriously. When it comes, it comes with a bang, changing you completely for the time period that it engulfs you. You feel good about everything around you and within you. You completely forget about all the worries and you just keep on thinking about the thing which made you happy. Your blood starts running fast in your veins (which is the adrenaline rush) and in this mode you just feel positive about every other negative thing in your life which is funny because the second you get out of the happiness mode, you feel negative about the same things again. Yes, that is the affect this happiness has on our brain, our heart and most importantly on our soul. There are so many actually countless moments in life where we feel such happiness even if it was just that happy time when hundreds of people liked your recent display picture on facebook or it was just that happy moment when your mother hugged you when you really needed it, there are still many of them but mostly we forget the less happiness giving times and remember only the major ones.

Yesterday I was very happy too because of something my parents did for me. Everything felt and sensed wonderful. All the things that were bugging me were just plainly ignored by me because I just wanted to think about my parents and just them. I felt so blessed and I felt good about life in general. I didn't even know how time went by yesterday (which for me doesn't normally pass so quickly because I am quite free these days) . It was like the phase when you fall in love, probably love gives people happiness and that is why they remain in a world of their own.They feel good about everything and everyone around till they are in love or in other words till they are happy.

Below given is an excerpt from one of my own poems titled 'Happiness'.

Sense Twilight coming over  

Feel gust of departure wafting

Yet my heart is illuminated

And my soul feels enlightened

Yes, happiness environs my spirit

The greatest fortune, one could every wish for

That eternal bliss I have ever yearned for

Has blessed my being finally

O God let this be for eternity

Let this jewel be my ornament enduringly

Just Posting!

Just felt like posting some motivating lines from one of my poems ( for those of you who are interested in knowing, yes  ... I do write poetry at times :) ).

So the lines go like ...


 

There’s a feeling of pain

Why am I not contented

Why can’t I figure it out?

And yet again as I ponder

I see a glimpse of hope

Pushing me away

Away for good

Have to hold on to this twine

Can’t let it go

Because I see it

See survival gazing at me

Alas the shadows are still increasing

Darkening my path

Is it the sunset or my vision blurring?

Nevertheless, I am holding

Holding on to you ….. my faith

And I know then

I know then ... that I will survive

Whiny Me

Its friday, a blessed day as is said in my religion but I don't feel very good today and the bad part is that I know the reason behind it! It is definitely better if you have no clue about things rather than knowing them and not doing anything about them. Probably that is why they say 'Ignorance is a bliss'. Sigh! I know in my heart that I have to do a lot of things to make other things right but I am not doing them. I need the medicine of 'pushing', some thing or some one to just push me into the realm of  'doing things' where I would do what I should be doing without any further delays. Do you know where I can get that medicine?

Anyways I was just thinking few moments back about a negative issue which happened and some how my mind by itself give me an example of a more negative issue which didn't happen. I, who was whining about the happening of former issue started thanking God about the unhappening of the latter one. Funny right? I mean if we actually start acting on that saying 'Count your blessings, not your woes', we can easily rid our over burdened brain from one of the many problematic thoughts it faces and move forward a little more happier but that is if and only if we start acting on the above given saying which is definitely not so easy!

As if I am in a flitting dream ...

Lately I have started to ponder upon this 'time' thing more and more. Have you noticed how quickly the time is passing? I see my life for instance, how it has changed within a span of just 1 year. A careless kid, much loved and pampered, suddenly has become a responsible young lady managing her own home now. My family, whom I grew up with for so many years and never noticed the changes time was doing to us but now when I am away from them, I can see it all. As a spectator I can easily comprehend how every one is growing and at what speed time is passing. My little sisters born in front of me now are achieving great feats in life, my cute niece just 6 months old on my wedding, now got her first toy car and proudly the youngest member of her pre-school class. I mean isn't it amazing how this time is just passing at an unimaginable speed?

As the time passes, you also learn to let go of previous 'times' and move ahead with the stream of life. At this time I am reminded of this following beautiful quote from one of my favourite movies titled 'The Lovely Bones',

Susie Salmon: "These were the lovely bones that had grown around my absence. The connections, sometimes tenuous, sometimes made at great cost, but often magnificent., that happened after I was gone. And I began to see things in a way that let me hold the world without me in it."

Perhaps I can appreciate this time passing due to one more fact which is this that I do have a lot of 'time' these days in particular to think about life. Sad but true that our busy lives just doesn't give us enough time to think about such things and appreciate the importance of every second that goes by.

I guess when we would die, most of us would agree to this saying about life from the same movie mentioned above,

Susie Salmon: "I was here for a moment, And then .... I was gone."

So everyone! in short, life is very small. We should live, feel, do, as if there is going to be no next moment. I guess then we would be more satisfied than we are now and what is more a blessing than contentment of the soul.

The Light Around Me

There are so many times when I feel like penning down my thoughts and feelings but the absence of my PC or note pad makes me feel kind of crippled at those times. Those are the times when I just 'feel' the beauty of what I wanted to express in words. There are so many feelings we get through out our lives. Some are good, some are bad, some are expressable and some are not. I also 'feel' that at times I take this feeling sense of me for granted. Actually there are other things like this that I take for granted as well and dont thank my creator for the small blessings I have. Indeed, he is the one who can give and take everything but thanking him is what we should do as our duty towards him.

Just a few hours back, I had a fulfilling meal and now I am just staring out my bedroom window onto a sunny afternoon. The sun rays make my window sill look like it is made from gold and the shadow of the window on my wall looks like some one has caved a no. 11 on it with a shimmering orangish yellow light bulb. Life is beautiful, yes it so is ... there is so much to see, feel, sense and be thankful for yet our over indulgence in whining over small things makes us blind towards the beauty all around us which is definitely much more bigger than those petty petty things.

Looking harder ..

In life there are times when you just feel like letting your inself out and feeling the warmth of nothing inside. This is one of those many times when we are reminded of the power of an important part of our body which is the brain. We use our brain and look around for some thing or some one to act as a vent. At such instances, we only care about the vent's necessity and nothing else. Sometimes we vent through eyes, some times we vent through heart , some times its the friends, some times the family, some times the note pad and so on goes the list.

Once the mountain of emotions bursts up and the adrelanine rush smoothens a bit, you get to feel how good it is to sense nothing inside you or alteast carry with you lesser burden than before. But, have we ever thought about what the 'other party' feels. Whether its a part of our own self or some other self that acts as a vent for us, its still getting to be the holder of our burden. So are we being fair by venting out our worries on some one/thing else? Quite a point to ponder on but I think, we as humans are selfish creatures. We mostly care for something if it reaps positive results for us otherwise we just move on removing the chapter of that thing from the book of our lives. Sad, but in real ... facts are bitter mostly ... no?

Beauty

Life is beautiful, indeed it is. These days the colors of summer all around make me feel happy and in turn remind me of the small beings we are in the big circle of existence. Every one I see is busy in some part of their life, occupied in achieving goals and purposes but in the end it comes down to going back. Yes, going back to where it all started from and from there begins the real test. So if I think a lot, this world and the life that we have is just a drop of rain in the heavy infinite downpour. Then why is there much fret, pain, hurt, anger and so on goes the list elements present in the one drop of rain we stand in. I think i definitely need to polish up my drop a bit, removing the darkness and illuminating it to see where its going. Because once I know where my drop is going to fall, I can prevent it from going haywire in the strong winds and wicked lightening. After all, the best rain drop not only gets to go back in the skies but also gets to stay there for an eternity with peace.